I don't know about you but I don't want to look back on my life saying it was "satisfactory" to me, that
means it could have been more memorable. I would much rather look back on a multitude of memories saying "WTF, how did I manage that?!" or "That was so surreal, I cannot believe I got to experience that!", I'd even rather be embarrassed after a major "uh oh" moment than wonder what else I could have seen, accomplished or been in shock over.
Do you ever ask yourself "Should I have applied for that amazing job?" or perhaps wish you would have tried to surf even though you were nervous in front of the locals, etc., etc., Insert one of your 1000 "I Want To's" floating around in your head here______. There are SO MANY things the world has to offer each and everyone of us, and we have so much to learn from and experience. There is no time for beige or plain old fine!
Many times I chose the easy way, or did what I thought I should do because it's not easy to face obstacles head on. In the past 10 years or so, however, I've begun to try something new every year to get the heck outta my comfort zone to slap some life back into my brain and heart. It helps me see what I have been taking for granted, face challenges I have been avoiding, and make sure I am not simply being a spectator of my life.
One of my own most unforgettable comfort zone/Fear Challenges was joining roller derby in 2006- 2008. Yep, at 34 I was going to skate as fast as I could around a track in hopes of not being checked, shoved, pushed or tripped by a slew of strong, tough, bad-ass women. Oddly, getting hurt was not one of my fears, the terrifying part was having all the attention directed on me, if only for only a few minutes, during the intro of my name. Skating by myself to the end of the line, with all eyes on me is enough to make me blackout in anxiety. I guess it's a fear of falling on my face doing something "stupid," being judged, failing to play well, or letting my team down in front of all those people. It may seem ridiculous to get that nervous in front of people, and I honestly did wanna vomit in my mouth when my name was called, and still may in similar situations. What is not crazy, is that I realized how independent and strong I am, and how empowering it is to recognize the hold fear has on my choices and kicking its ass.
What are some things you have always dreamt of doing that fear is holding you back from? Skydiving? Applying for that grant? Taking a welding class? Learning to salsa dance? Trying something else? Imagine the feeling of accomplishing your dream, the exhilaration of living in the moment and being the producer of your own happy. That, my friend, is there for the taking and within your reach. Life can be pretty amazing when we pay attention and make choices according to our true self, and create experiences that bring us closer to our own happy place. The real beauty of life it is the thrill of doing, the journey that got us there and hearing our heart beat to remind us that we are still living.