Moments of imagination and clarity help me to reflect on what was going on in my head when I planned this trip and why I left Minneapolis for a farm or another country far, far away. My mind in MN was so clogged with various thoughts holding me back or clouding my judgement. I needed to vacuum all the fuzz, should of's, why can't I's and I wanna's out of my brain because I couldn't figure out how to arrange my life back in MN for it to work in the way that I wanted it to be. Does that make sense to you?
I had been planning for months and babbling about leaving Minnesota to explore my Happy Trail and to gain clarity on what my next steps in life would be. A week or two before I left Minneapolis I met some amazing people that truly inspired me to take the steps towards where I always envisioned I would be and what I was always capable of. Some other events completely flipped my insides upside down, as if I had just taken a huge suck off an oxygen tank that blew some Fuck Yeah's into my spirit and left me with a perma-grin. I said to a friend before I left "When I was planning Happy Trail it was my self induced slap in the ass and somewhat my made up support system in order to have a reason to leave Minneapolis by myself. I was leaving Minnesota to get away from everything, and to take a step back, but now I all I wanna do is come back to all these amazing people and start my next episode, because I know it is going to be amazing."
I realize that Minneapolis is home and that is where I was going to experience my next phase of happy.
March 9th, 2016
I wanted to post this short entry because I feel as though it is so important. It is a huge revelation, and a lesson learned, not just preached. Wherever you go, there you are. Sometimes I guess you gotta just get the hell outta of yourself to appreciate who you are, where you are, what you have and notice the vast possibilities surrounding us.